you are my star

i've always had a major thing for boys in glasses.

it could be because when i was growing up, glasses meant that you were either smart or a geek or both, and i always preferred smart/geeky boys to cute ones. it could be because of the fact that poor eyesight is a physical handicap and it activates my desire to protect someone weaker than myself. it could be because i've always liked the mental image of taking off a boy's glasses before proceeding to make out with his face.

all i know is it has turned into a full-blown fetish. like seriously. it's unhealthy.

so anyway:



yeah. so um. i'm just gonna be in my bunk.

(but not really cause i'm at school fml)

i'm really sad because today was the final episode of arashi no shukudai-kun. EVER.

they were on air for 8 years!!! granted, they kept changing the name and the format of the show. but it was the same show with the same 5 people hosting/doing stupid things and the same production crew. FOR 8 YEARS.

and now it's over. it's depressing.

so to cheer myself up, i opened my sketchbook. and i saw onew's smile. and that was the end of that.

(goodbye ANS. i will miss you forever.)

please to be checking out said picture of onew's smile so you can cheer up too! erm, not that you need cheering up. yeah. DO IT!



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it is officially

~*~ SPRING BREAK~*~

and although i am spending the entire week either on youtube fangirling in my apartment or working in the school's computer lab (which is thankfully open and oh joy it shall be really quiet this week because i will be the only one there as everyone is off to cancun) because i am a huge nerd need to catch up on homework, i am still very excited because the possibilities of this week are endless.

okay maybe not endless, but i am looking forward to getting a shitload of stuff done, which i will list down here because i have no organization skills to speak of and i spend most of my time on lj anyway:

1. clean my apartment because it has been overrun by giant cardboard heads, rolls of hastily designed posters and their slightly better revised versions, huge amounts of prints from my letterpress and photolitography classes, blocks of carved wood from my woodcut printing class, enormous screens for my silkscreen class, etc etc. i'm starting to have a difficult time finding  t-shirts/sneakers/my dignity under all this mess. good thing i'm GRADUATING IN MAY. UGH I CAN'T WAIT.

2. homework (please move on to next number):
    a. history of graphic design -- typographic poster for my organic food manifesto (75% done)
    b. logos class -- 200 logo studies for a concert (50% done)
    c. graphic design 3 -- website for public intervention project (0% done)
    d. portfolio class -- series of 3 posters for a film festival (25% done)
    e. processing -- programming code for an image-driven interactive sketch (done woohoo!!!!)
    f. woodcut/letterpress class -- layout design and illustrations for my rhyming ninja book (0%done)
    g. silkscreen class -- 5 bags and 5 t-shirts printed (done and done)

3. new lj layout and icons! preferably with onew/onkey/onkeyhyun on them. because shinee. come on.

4. watch all the shinee videos on youtube.

5. catch up on drama: bloody monday 2, iris, tokujo kabachi, skins, etc

okay obviously all this cannot be done in a week. but i'm already starting on number one and i'm feeling real good about my chances.

these days the only perfs i watch on the music shows are snsd's and cn blue's so i was starting to crave new songs.

i keep seeing u-kiss news on my flist and i don't really know them so i was kind of curious what the hype was about. and so fiiiiiiine i watched u-kiss' bingeul bingeul a couple days ago. and i didn't really like it. i even stopped the video halfway through.

the next day, i was working on my school's letterpress for 4 hours and that entire time, i was humming that same song over and over. AFTER WATCHING IT ONE TIME. i was even doing the dance moves in front of the fucking letterpress. people were starting to worry about me.

what crazy voodoo is this? they must have recorded secret subliminal messages into the record or something. like "YOU WILL NEVER GET ME OUT OF YOUR HEAD" or "DANCE, NIÑA, DANCE."

am i totally alone in this?



(i like the girly boy who looks like hirosue ryoko. the one who sings "i just want you baby here right now" in perfect english. and yes it's because his face and the fierceness with which he flips his hair kind of remind me of KEY. oh god SHINEE needs to come back right now :c)

ETA:

speaking of shinee, ONEW IN A MUSICAL. WITH A KISS SCENE.


THIS IS GOING TO BE FUCKING AWESOME.

so the novelty of a sexy black-haired Key has worn off. but that whole "i wanna do key" phase did leave me somehow loving his voice and now he is number two on my favorite shinee boy list. he used to be number five because he was gay old key with blonde hair. and recently, despite his new-found pimp-ness and masculinity, he has still been acting like gay old key and it's just one big mindfuck to me. and so.

THE NUMBER 1 SPOT IS ONCE AGAIN OWNED BY LEE MOTHERFLIPPING JINKI.

his voice is still one of my favorite voices in the entire world ever and his solo is just ADOOOOOOORE. everything he did on shim shim tapa was painfully cute. basically he's just all around perfect and we already know that.

BUT DID EVERYONE SEE HOW GORGE HE LOOKED ON MUCORE TODAY??? with his black cutoff gloves, black leather jacket, AND SKINTIGHT SILVER PANTS???

this boy.

but key slapping the floor at one point in the performance was him telling me that if he was gonna be dislodged from the top by onew, then by god he was gonna be a close close second. i loved that.

and now i'm off to spend my entire day with the boy i like. teehee.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!!!

okay so SNSD's hot new song and video are out. SUPER GENERATION was good. SO NYON SHI DAE (boy's generation) and mubank was even better. these are the moments when i'm so happy i'm in this fandom. but as much joy as glorious performances like these bring me, this fandom is also going to be responsible for my first heart attack.

this week has been insane. the real world is STRESSFUL enough as it is, with important people dying left and right (RIP farah fawcett and michael jackson), and north korea threatening to wipe my neighborhood off the map. but then fandom decides to make things worse. the whole SUPER JUNIOR SITUATION  is a source of constant worry. i mean leg injuries, depression, the possibility of someone leaving the band, the possibility of the entire band breaking up, future military service, and just the uncertainty of wtf is gonna happen to them is driving me nuts. and then SUNGMIN gets a freakin' knee injury, which he needed STITCHES for (poor baby) and he didn't have to be on mubank but he decided to go anyway because he really wanted to perform. so he did, and he was SINGING and SMILING through the pain, dammit. gah he's such a SWEETHEART. and then SHINEE decides to contribute to my steadily increasing blood pressure, in the form of GIANT METAL LIGHTING FIXTURES wanting to eat onew. but then SIWON (with backup from kyuhyun and you know, GOD) caught the damn thing before it could crush my beloved ondubu, so another coronary averted.

i swear this fandom is gonna be the death of me.

so now i shall cheer myself up with the cutest thing i saw all week and hopefully it would be enough to get me through another week in KPOP: THE DEADLIEST FANDOM EVER.